another bad day and all I want to do is look at you and know I'm okay.

wow

2006-11-10T23:14:05Z

wow so i havent posted on here in like a year...thats insane i was reading over my old ones and wow do i miss A LOT of people. And old pictures of matt and i thats when we were actually happy. Crazy i know. A lot has happened since the last time i posted..mainly in just these few months. Matt and i are no longer together. Surprise hey, thought we were gonna get married and shit. First heart breaks suck but i got theresa by my side helpin me out. Thank god. But maybe ill start using this thing more often. Its not as cool as the whole myspace ordeal but i enjoy writing in here.

<33

yeahhh...

2005-10-21T21:48:58Z

K so like i know that i havent updated in FOREVER.....but pretty sure im excitied to go on vacation. WOOT WOOT.

Me and Kelso in Aruba this is gonna be a time to remember!

bored

2005-07-11T01:23:04Z

yep so i went to summerfest today for a little while..i had to hand in my card thingy for down there... and then talked to my bossguydude cuz i wanted to know if i was working festa and when im getting paid. Yeah..so last night i got to thinking, theres a ton of stuff that i miss that i dont really have anymore. some friends and then a lot of relationships i had with family and close friends of the family that i dont have anymore and it totally bummed me out. And i really miss some of my friends... i barely hang out with them anymore and i feel stupid for saying this but i miss having all those good times with them and doing the stupid stuff we did, but i guess its not like that anymore. Whatever tho im not gonna sit and dwell on it but i dont know i was things back to normal but thats not gonna happen...oh well whatever...i think a little trip up to riverbend is much needed....i think im gonna take kelsey and probably courtney...anyone else wanna go...just lemme know and we can be on our merely ways. lol

*.FIRSTS.*

*First best friend: I cant remember

*First real date: still don’t think I’ve had one

*First real kiss: uhmm I cant remember that either

*First real break-up: uhmm first break up me and matt had

*First screen name: octallblonde02

*First self purchased album: hanson…and I still have it.

*First funeral: my great aunt

*First pets: my fishes lol

*First piercing/tattoo: ears

*First credit card: none yet

*First true love: matt

*First enemy: idk

*First big trip: Florida when I was 8

*First musician you remember hearing in your house: umm wow i really dont know

*.LASTS.*

*Last car ride: my mom

*Last kiss: yesterday when I left matts house

*Last good cry: probably a week ago

*Last library book checked out: its been a long time

*Last movie seen: the notebook

*Last beverage drank: water

*Last food consumed: curly fries

*Last crush: matt

*Last phone call: matt

*Last time showered: this morning

*Last shoes worn: flip flops

*Last cd played: the CD I bought at summerfest or silverstein

*Last item bought: a belly button ring

*Last annoyance: being too hot

*Last disappointment: earlier tonight.

*Last time having sex : idk a while maybe

*Last time wanting to die: its been a while lol

*Last time scolded: probably friday

*Last shirt worn: matt’s t-shirt

*Last website visited: livejournal, obviously.

hmmmm

2005-07-03T17:27:45Z

Soooo summerfest started...yep thats right and i've been there everyday since...and it wasnt cuz i wanted to but i guess its fun. I work down there and whatever so its fun and i love allll the people i work with. A TON OF PEOPLE GOT THE CUT!! not me tho! woo for that im not sure if i work today. ill probably work 5 to close...and thats not a big deal cuz i mean i get to make fun of the drunks with Lisa and we already do that enough at like 2 in the afternoon. I think it was 2 days ago there was this guy and he had like a bleach blonde mullet thingy and he was dancing like they did in the 80's and as im watching this customers are coming up and thinking im laughing at them...so i had to explain. I never see the big owner guy which im happy about cuz hes a big asshole who bitches alot...Yesterday i got paid to sit at the lake while everyone cleaned up. I met this girl sarah too. she about 20 and shes really super nice and cool i worked with her my first day. And she might be getting me this joby thingy at red bull and thats pretty cool saying that i love energy drinks...and id end up getting a ton of that shit. Anywho im out cuz i gotta go get some more fireworks cuz me my brother matt elliot and dan blew off a ton of them....we made little bomb thingys and then dan was throwing bottle rockets in the sewer thingy..idk i had fun but im out so ill talk to everyone later..peace out.

<3

Happy Fathers Day!

2005-06-19T20:27:12Z

Yep so its fathers day..and im waiting for my pops to get here...yep thats right im gonna actually go with my dad for the day. Can you believe that..haha just kidding..but yeah who knows what were gonna do..i mean we'll probably be doing pretty boring stuff but hey i have to do what my dad wants to do, cuz it is his day. Anywho im not gonna worry too much cuz we'll probably end up going to a festival or something...cuz yeah we're cool like that...and Sonja and Luka will more than likely be with too and i dont mind being around them..they always make me HAPPY! :D Anywho im out cuz pops should be here in a little while and i gots to look cute! haha

<3

Summmmmmmerrr timeeee

2005-06-09T02:57:21Z

Okay...so like summmmmer is almost here! heres some pics...

me murph and alex

me and em

me and ky

me and kayla...looks like i want her tounge

stacie and sammie

me and jordy

brandon

nick..i think he wants you to call him

zack looks like hes gonan cry

back of my head?

reno and casey

yes i know im a dork! but i love it!

caseyyyy

my little Lee Lee! <3

dan...sorta

my courtney!! <333

soo me and matt got bored the other day

2005-06-07T02:58:53Z

We are cute together arent we?

Im a gangster, i know i know

hmmmm

2005-05-28T18:57:59Z

Okay so i found this, and stole if from my cousin cuz welllllll its really kinda true in some ways...I love things like these cuz most of them come true for me allllll the time and i really dont mind that one at all. :) so here ya go peeps.

31 Things Guys Should Know About Girls

1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house...they run around in their underwear just like we do.

2. Don't cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other
everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and you will be mud.

3. Beware of every single male relatives and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your butt at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.

4. Never miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful.

5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous.

6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.

7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your arms.

8. If you don't sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did.

--8.5. If you DO sleep with them, don't tell your friends that you did.

9. You can be dirty minded in private, really...most of them are not offended by it...

10. Not all of them eat like birds; a lot of them can eat like whales.

11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy.

--11.5. Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!

12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.

13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.

14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to kick the crap out of him.

15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.

16. Never, ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.

17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.

18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.

19. Don't flirt with their moms or friends...that's just freaky.

20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like crap, so be understanding.

21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.

22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.

23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.

24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.

25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.

26. Memorize their birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life.

27. Don't marinade the cologne.

28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful. Jewelry is always nice.

29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt you more if you draw it out.

30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

31.Don't ever do anything wrong (well not anything). Girls remember things for life and anything you did wrong will be used against you in the future.

Just thought that would be cute to add in here...so all boys that read this thingy....YOU BETTER LISTEN!

at school

2005-05-25T19:46:37Z

So im sitting here at school, like i figued out how to get to this site here. yeah this one kid in my computer class showed me so that pretty cool...school ends in 5 minutes...yay! :)

hmm...

2005-05-20T20:50:14Z

Yeah, so stuff with my mom has gotten pretty bad and i have to say that i pretty much hate her...like not even joking, i've never hated anyone more than this before...People tell me you cant hate your mom, but ohh you can, cuz if shes taking away everything that prettttty much makes you happy...you can hate her, and then you have to go back to being all emotional and down-yeah thats a pretty hard switch from being happy and things couldnt be better to having a shit mood all the time. My mom really doesnt realize it but if she would just let me see him, things with me and her wouldnt be soo bad but i think she just wants to me to not like her or something..or maybe its to make me as miserable as possible...either one works. But yeah i dont know..im going to my dads for the weekend...maybe longer, idk..but yeah maybe to get away from her, and maybe he'll let me see matt..doubtful. i mean i havent seen the kid in over 2 months but hey my dads on strict order from Mrs. Devil over here. But yeah shes callin and i gotta fight with her a little more. So im out anyone wanna do something..hit up the cellular of course!

<3

punkblondie08 @ 2005-04-26T14:58:00

2005-04-26T22:01:11Z

I hate days like these....when you just wanna sit there and cry.

yeppp

2005-04-15T02:03:48Z

Well incase you didnt know, im grounded for a while, so i dont know how much im really gonna be on here. Call up the cell if you wanna hang out or something.

<3

blah.

2005-04-04T20:53:54Z

Sooo today was back to school and it was gay and horrible, except i got talking with all the people i havent in a while and i love them lots cuz they make me happy. I miss those girls, and you guys know who im talking about, i think? Oh well whatever i was in a horrible mood today and things just werent going my way, and it just pist me off...and a lot of people know. but whatev not going thereeeee. I dont know im out, maybe try getting in a better mood. whatever im out.

<3

PS-> i miss chunk a lot. That kid can always get me to smile no matter what:(

PPS--> It super nice out! :)

la de da de da..

2005-03-30T03:12:10Z

So yeah, today, went over to Josiah's again. Watched the boys ride for a while but then got pretty cold so went and chilled in the basement. Well then i had to watch the incridebles AGAIN.. and seriously, that is a horrible movie, but i was forced to and idk i kinda kept myself busy and i was just happy-i had a cuddle buddy, that makes me happy. Chunk and Josiah kept pinching the back of my arms and that seriously hurt soooo bad, they thought it was funny. We just messed around we didnt totally watch the whole movie, atleast i dont think so. So idk i had fun tho, there was a good end to that night thats for sure. Ha. And i left my purse over at josiah's house and it had my camera in it so he ended up taking pictures with it, but hey i dont care hes a cutie.

haha what a dork. but a cute one!

Josiah's room lol

you cant totally see this one.

his coffee that kept him awake all night.

his ankle i think.

his snazy shirt.

lookin hot Josiah. my sunglasses look good on you. lol

the picture i colored him! lol

look at sexy chunk! ow ow!

Gangsta Chunk lol

Haha i love those boys, they're great and soo much fun to hang out with and to just mess around with.

punkblondie08 @ 2005-03-27T14:36:00

2005-03-27T20:45:41Z

Well last night i went to sams party for a bit. Well that was fun...not really..i sat in the work out room most of the night and talked to Josiah on the phone. I was trying to get him to come up to the party but his parents wouldnt let him. Ehh thank god they didnt, cuz instead me stacie kylie and Athea headed over to Josiah's and we watched the Incredibles...i sooo did not like that movie but everyone was liking it, nooo i take that back Joe and Dan were liking it..So i figured i'd annoy Josiah so he would stop watching the movie. Haha im happy i tried annoying him...it didnt work, and hes not tickelish so that was nooooo gooooood. It was fun. I noticed that Josiah and Dan are totalllly against cell phones and it was really funny cuz all 4 of the girls had their cell phones and we all pulled them out at the same time. And stacie wouldnt stop callin me and sending me texts. What a loser. Haha and when dan walked in i swear him and Joe were matcing but i guess not, it was close tho. Really close. Anywho enough about that. Tonight i think the girls are coming over for a sleep over and what not. And then dinner tomorrow for Athea so i gots to go clean up my room for the girls to come over. So Happy Easter Everyone!

<3

Good times to start off Spring Break 05'

2005-03-26T19:43:06Z

Soooo last night i went to stacies, cuz Athea came up and i really wanted to hang with her. It was soo much fun, from watching staice and athea dance to, just sittng and talking with my girls, and then the boys coming over at 11, it was just a great time and i relized how much i really missed hanging out with those girls. Well where to start-i dont even know. There were soo many fun times that it hard to even say them all. But theres plenty of pictures, even if you cant see them that well, ill always remeber tonight. Im going to sams party tonight..woot woot to that!!!

check out those hot girls!! ow ow! lol

someone doesnt know how to take a picture. and chunk grabbed my butt! lol

me and the girls!

haha wow look at my face.

Never say i bet you wont to max cuz he sure as hell will...i think i seen that kids weiner a million times last night. Holllly Crapppp.

you cant see it, but he had on my pants...COMANDO!!!

no one would help me!!! that looks sooo horrible.

look at elliot.

yep thats me...lol

chunk was playing hide-n-go-seek...lol idk?

And thats it for now....till tomorrow, im going to sams and the good ol' camera is coming with, and then im sleepin at ky's with the girls soo these should be fun.

fun times tonight.

2005-03-25T05:25:01Z

So school was long and boring as hell as normal, but it was extra long cuz its spring break now! woot woot! Well today after school, i had the funnest time, i went over to my boy josiah's and might i add that was a BLAST!! there was soo much funny stuff that i wish i had my camera with me, it was just awesome. Uhmm like when the boys were riding and just goofing around that was funny...i bagtagged mike idk how many times, and then later on, i was walking around with Chunk's name on my sweatshirt, it was funny, and i ate dinner with Joe and his mom and his sister, of course Kayleigh was with me cuz im not big enough to go eat by myself lol. Dan had his camera with him the whole time too so we took some video, the boys fought with the drum sticks, that was hillarious might i add cuz they all ended up with big welts and bruises, idk i had a lot of fun tonight, more than i've had in a while. Im just happy to start talking with chunk like i use to, i missed that kid a lot, Ohhh and when we were walking Kayleigh home, me and joe were walking in front of everyone, and he was kicking rocks, and so i picked one up and i was like im gonna throw this at chunk, and it hit him right in the face, omg i felt horrible about it, And CHUNK IM REALLY REALLY SORRY!!! i didnt mean for it to hit you in the face and to break skin. i felt sooo bad. Then after we walked kayleigh home we went back to Joe's house and had a nice little bon fire but it took like 5 of us to get it to start going. Had some good times tonight, those guys are great, and im soo happy im friends with them all. well except mike was getting pretty annoying, ehh oh well. But now im out cuz im waiting for chunk to come on cuz i told him i would. So im out, ill probably post some pics on here over this spring break!

<3

Tastes of Chaos

2005-03-13T19:53:27Z

Wow last night was just totally awesome! i didnt exspect it to be like that at all..it was just amazing and i got to see some awesome bands that i didnt really hear much about, some of them were pretty good and then there were the other ones that werent hot stuff but ehh i got over it. It was just good to go to show i havent been to one in like FOREVER and the best part was that i gots to be with one of the greatest people in the world, it made my night soo much better by the way. The guys in the bands were totally chill and you seen them walkin around after they were done playing which is cool, well mostly the guys from the smaller bands, i seen the guitarist from My Chemical Romance, he was trying to hide with his hood up and walkin all fast, funnnny...didnt think you could hide that much hair under a hood. I saw a bunch of people there...chunk max josiah and carl, and a billion other people i knew. It was amazing. And best of all I GOT TO SEE SENSES FAIL!!! that realllllly made my night even tho they only played like 4 or 5 songs it was still awesome.

Matt-Thank you soooo much for coming with me, i know you were super tired and probably didnt wanna go to a show but thanks for suckin it up and coming with me, that meant a lot to me and i owe you BIG TIME! And thank you for the awesome shirt! :) love ya lots!

<3

Yay!

2005-03-12T18:41:11Z

Yay! Taste of Chaos tonight! soooo happppy! i cant wait, and the best part is i get to go with my toy and i mean i know hes not gonna enjoy it as much as me but what the hell, hes the best anyways and i love him for doing this for me! cuz mostly everyone else is being an asshole but whatever im over it.

Im just happy i get to see freakin Senses Fails that i've been dying to see forever! cannot be any happier.

<3

haha i thought my little face thingys was the cutest hes smokin a fatty blunt...lmao

Ow Ow

2005-03-10T00:03:34Z

I can't wait till SATURDAY!!! TASTE OF CHAOS here i come!!!! haha sucks for all you that cant be there!!

its gonna muchos and i get too see my most favorite band! SENSES FAIL!!!

Kay well now im off to matthews!! :)

I Love You!

2005-02-23T23:35:29Z

SO I WANT YOU TO TAKE THIS KNIFE CUT A STRAIGHT LINE RIGHT DOWN MY CHEST PULL BACK THE SKIN NOW BREAK THE BONE AND TEAR BACK MY RIBS,INSIDE YOU'LL FINE EVERYTHING THAT YOU COULD POSSIBLE WANT AND YOU CAN TAKE ANYTHING IT BELONGS TO YOU, BUT THE ONE THING YOU WONT FIND IN THERE IS MY HEART YOU WONT FIND IT CAUSE IT HAS BEEN YOURS SINCE THE VERY FIRST DAY DO WHAT YOU WANT WITH IT I DONT WANT IT. BURN IT. GIVE IT AWAY. SMASH IT .KEEP IT . HAVE IT. ITS BEEN YOURS SINCE DAY 1................

Hmmmm...good day today! After school i went over to kelsos and we went tanning and all that good stuff and i burnt my butt again...i should have learned the first time...but no....Anywho after that we walked home and kelsey called rich to take us to mcdonalds..ohh that was yummie! Yeah...kels and court came over yesterday for a little while and we all went tanning and stuff...then we came back here and me and court hung out while kelsey went to work out with rich...it was a fun little time i really mis those girls tho they have always been the greatest! Yep well im about to go take a little nap now so im out...

<3

hmmm..

2005-02-15T23:20:22Z

well wow that effin gay, i just had this big thing all typed up and then it deleted! how gay...well anyways this weekend was pretty fun....stayed at the dibbles while my mumsies was in Vegas...hmm was the ever so fun! haha her parents telling me thanks like a million times...haha she knows what im talking about and, friday night, thats all im gonna say cuz that was a BLAST! everyone that was there knows what im talkin about. whatelse....hmm valentines day...funn..went to matts house, gave him his present and what not, and then i got mine even tho i really didnt want anything. he still went against me and got me something. its okay it was super cute and i liked all of it. I got a cute little teddy bear that smells super good cuz his doood purfume stuff is on it and makes it smell all good like him, then he got me a crap load of candy and then a pink rose. And last this really cute gold braclet, its really cute and he didnt need to buy me and of that, yet he goes and does it anyways. Anywho, i think im gonna be sleepin in a few cuz im soooo effin sleepy.

<3

le de da de da

2005-01-30T03:04:16Z

welllll soo bored and havent updated and dont know what to all put but im a big kid i've been 15 for over a week lol

peace out

whoo!

2005-01-20T04:02:39Z

It's my birfday! =)

So i had an awesome birthday, and the people i really like the most lately were all here. Matt..Kylie...Emily...Chunk..Bob..Max..Kender...and then stacie and jake stopped for a little while..

thanks guys you really made my day! :]

let see i got lots of stuff. I got roses from my dibble and matt...dibble got me balloons too! and matt got me this super cute teddy bear. And thanks to my cousin and chunk i got cake in my face and all in my hair. its okay emily licked it off for me! lol

Anyways thanks to everyone for everything!

yay!

2005-01-19T04:43:17Z

my b-day is in 1 hour and 15 minutes!!! =)